Trying to begin again

If I choose to let my beard grow
If I choose to cry all night
Would you think I'm trying something new
Or reaching out with all my might?

If I choose to say I love you
Unsure what you might say
You'd let me down the hard way
Such is the cliché

I'm not half the man I used to be
But I still feel him on the other side
I can't let myself be strayed to darkness
'Cause you can't live your dreams before you ever wake

Tell me what I want to hear, Sandy
Tell me "we're for each other" tonight
Although I can't make it now without your breath
We won't always be together anymore

The fire doesn't burn tonight
Sometimes I fear it never has
Can I keep telling myself I'm gonna win, baby
When I can't even get into the game?