I may be crazy...

I may be crazy, but I'm not insane…
…all thanks to me playing your "victimless game"
You asked me to hold you, so I held you tight…
…you begged me to talk to you, so we stayed up all night…

We haven't shared a bed for what seems like years…
…yet, you're always around me shedding tears…
I know what I mean to you, I know what I've done for you…
…it's just hard to be there for you, when I'm the one hurting you…

I gave you my all, when that was more than I had…
…yet you sat there crying, I'm the one feeling bad…
So, I summoned my reserves and I begged them for more…
…'cause I couldn't leave you crying, knowing I may have some left stored…

I came out the next day like a prisoner freed from his cell…
…knowing I have what I needed to answer the bell…
I told you I loved you and that you mattered most…
…I said that I needed you, my heart believed that… almost…

Wearing thin from the pressure of winning your love…
…I told you my feelings of how I may be above…
You looked in my eyes and with vigor you swore…
…it was then that I realized you've always had one foot out the door…

Being without you, I've felt nothing but pain…
…though I know that I'm crazy, you're the one that's insane…

Foundations

In this life, it's difficult to not allow other's impressions of you dictate who you are…
…unfortunately, this is a way of life…
For the larger majority, it's not who you are; just who people think you are…
…and whether that's fair or unjust, this is the world in which we exist…

I'm calling for life…
…searching for the undisputed tyranny of monogamy and friendship…
…willing to concede the lesser virtues for the path of chosen…
I don't know if I'll ever be called into action…
…but I have been led to believe that I can succeed if asked to do so…

The foundation is being built as the basis of my future…
…a place that will always be a part of me…
….housing memories long forgotten and dreams to be processed…

Imagination and creativity is what fuels the world…
…without it, stagnation and malaise would rule…
While I believe honesty is the key to happiness,
…creativity is the key to sanity…

A picture or a song was the cure all along…
…and whether the whole world sees your art…
…or the new piece is for your eyes only…
The fact that you can bring something unique into the world makes it all worthwhile…

A Glimpse into my being...

Don't be afraid..
..don't say a word..
It's just the motion of the morning..
..sounds of the new day being heard..

Don't cover your eyes..
..don't shield them from the light..
Let the early sunrise warm you..
..and let it save you from the night..

In my heart I think you're scared of what the future has to give..
..so much, in fact, you're up alone with the late night life you live..

If you never see the ocean..
..if you never see the sea..
You will never have the courage to be as good as you can be..

I'm a man who lives everyday as though it was his last..
..my courage doesn't find me, I have to find him with every task..
We're all afraid of change and the things we do not know..
..we let the known information drain us, until there's nothing left to show..

The only piece of advice I can give you..
..though, I know you may not want to hear..
Is to do the things that make you happy..
..those who love you will make it clear..

Each morning when I wake up..
..and feel the sounds of the new day being born..
I make a promise to myself in the early morning sun..

'Today I do what's right for me, and for everyone I love..
..I won't let fallen idols take away anything I've done..'

Living renewed...

Well, you used to be my best friend…
…the one I held above the rest…
But, now, you just disgust me…
…came out of hole just to be a pest…

You decided out of nowhere we're busted…
…it became apparent then you couldn't be trusted…
All of your mistakes were more than I could take…
…I knew then I couldn't let it be…

Assclowns…
…assclowns always think they'll ascend…
Assclowns…
…assclowns'll let you down in the end
You screwed up, but I'm screwed over…
…this all ends now, I'll find my clover…

The reason you're distressed now…
…is 'cause you know that you did wrong…
Why must you confront me…
….when it's clear our past is all gone?

What exactly are you fighting for…
…who are you trying to impress…
What are you trying to prove…
…when will you let all the drama rest?

You're an assclown…
…assclowns always think they'll ascend…
Assclowns…
…assclowns'll let you down in the end…
You screwed up, but I'm screwed over…
…this all ends now, I'll find my clover…

I'm sorry it had to be this way…
…I did the best that I could do…
But things ended up the way I wanted…
…I'm living with the angels renewed…

Closer to Closure and Composure

I'm slowly gaining closure as I feel the need to hold you closer…

Last night…
You began the dream…
Last night…
There were no in-betweens…

If Meriwether's shoulder has the strength to throw
…then it shouldn't be expecting much for me to know…
How much I've meant to you since we started all those years ago…

The curtain has been shifted; the veil has been lifted….
It's hard to look to see how I'd been so constricted…

…from the love that I felt for her…
…the things that I bought for her…
…by the words I had shared with her…

Now, I realize that, I'm slowly gaining closure as I feel the need to hold you closer…

You're all I ever needed…
…the one for whom I've begged and pleaded…
I had my chances and I blew them…
Who ever knew that it was you I always needed…

I'm slowly gaining closure…
…from a woman known for being colder…
Who couldn't share a single dream…
…or cuddle tightly near the silver screen…

I saw you from across the room…
…inside I knew you'd be mine soon…
And, though, we've been together for just a tiny bit…

I know with you, I'll slowly gain composure as I begin to hold you closer

My Obligatory Fate...

When people go and tell me that things will be ok…
…it usually leaves me guessing, never knowing what to say…
This time it feels that all I'm ever doing is living at their beck and call…
…I'm fighting their resistance, but I'll be only the one that falls…

Running through the current…
…forcing my way beyond the crowd…
I can see you in distance…

…In my heart, I know you're proud…

You the only voice of reason,

In a life that's lost all hope…
The one that I can turn to…
…if I need to laugh or cry or mope…

It's a hard pill for me to swallow…
The choice wasn't mine to make…
But it's closing time and it's time to find…
…my obligatory fate…

Love me or leave me…
…you don't have to shed my blood to bleed me…
Cautious, but carefree…
…your voice is the only thing to heal me…

Will you be there in the moment when my skin reflects the light…

I can see your face, I can see your soul…
…my heart will tell me when it's right…

It's a hard pill for me to swallow…
The choice was not mine to make…
But it's closing time and it's time to find…
…my obligatory fate…

In the moment that we live in, you're the only one for me to trust…
…it's hard enough to keep the friendship from being cute to being lust…
When I realize what you mean to me and what I have to lose…
…I'll have to understand that life here would be the next thing I would choose…

It's a hard pill for me to swallow…
The choice was not mine to make…
But it's closing time and it's time to find…
…my obligatory fate…