The Team Player

In a world of noises
All I pretend to hear is silence
I'm no better than the rest

I don't know who I am
Or where I wish to be
But I'm better
Inside I know I'm better

But we all have fears
We bury deep inside
We'd all be so much better
If we'd just raise our eyes
Look past the tears and anguish
Let our true selves shine
We're all in this together
There's no more place to hide

We all have fences and defenses
'Cause we're scared to show
Our face behind the curtain
And all the things we know
Eventually, we're judged
By a jury of peers
Who just look out for themselves
It's been the same for years

But we all have fears
We bury deep inside
We'd all be so much better
If we'd just raise our eyes
Look past the tears and anguish
Let our true selves shine
We're all in this together
There's no more place to hide

I know I can't keep waiting
Wasting time; procrastinating
The team won't face the music
I'll let the music let me choose it
It's a smokeless slag
Or a Root Beer Rag
It's my drug
And I choose to abuse it

The Islander

Busy sidewalks, crowded streets
Lonely pathways full of padded feets

There's a gentle buzzing of a stirring awe
Listening to people voicing all the shit they saw

In the world there is a place
With a single, solitary face
They live alone, they thrive alone
Which is fine for them, it is their home

There's too much pressure in the world
To be like others, no oysters or pearls
Each given from the gods of the sky
Are stolen by others, you'll never know why

So, each day I dream of the solitary face
They might as well be living in the depths of outer space
They know the world in which the live,
Happy as hell, there's no pressure to give.
Spending mornings beach side, embracing the waves
Thoughtless in moonlight, there's no electronics to crave

The melody of functionality is the tune that they play
But if they could trade lives with mine, I doubt they would stay

The injustice of this world is the uncertainty of anything
There is no perfection, and that's fine...
But there's certainly a bottom to the bottomless mine

The Islander dreams of seeing just one other face...
The beauty of life is that my dream is for never-ending space

Life Mending

Love is all you need...

Always look at the bright side of life...

Here comes the sun...

No standing.

The most powerful statements are the ones that use the fewest words
So, why must I employ the never ending sililoquy?
What am I trying to prove?

"I'm well-read, so please be in awe of the useless shit I say!"

God, I can be so pretentious.
...when I want to be...
...which seems to happen more and more often...

"You haven't seen the Godfather?! Or Magnolia?!
...let me tell you minor plot details to let me seem so cultured!"

Why am I showing off?
It's not like I have all that much to showoff, anyways.
I listen to music, I play video games, I watch porn...
...oh, you must be so impressed.
I'm so fucking normal it sickens me,
But for some reason, I'm trying to show the world I'm unique.
That I'm special.

"I think I'm unique; I believe in fate...
...what I give into the world will some day find me..."

Fuck me.

"I believe..."

Believe in what?
Myself?
No.
Other people?
Fuck that.

Then what exactly do you believe in, You hot-air piece of shit?

"I believe there has to be more than this...
...if I didn't I wouldn't get through the day"

But what if there isn't anything beyond this?
What the fuck are you doing?
Waiting for the next life or waiting for this life to show the world to you...
...buddy, they ain't gonna happen.
You gotta make shit happen or you're just going to grow old...
...grow bitter...
...and you'll still be waiting...
...forever...
....for the world, whatever that is, to show itself to you...

In the end all that really matters are the things that truly matter to you...
...and to be honest, I don't want that to be a few sports teams and musicians
I want to share myself with people who I truly care about...

"But I already to, I have best friends and family an..."

So fucking what.
You take them for granted right now.
You think they matter to you, but you take them for granted and you're alone

"Maybe you're right..."

Fuck yeah, I'm right.
Show people they matter.
...ignoring them and do your own shit won't show them you care...

"But I do care..."

Show them.
Show yourself!

I was wrong before...
The most powerful statements aren't the ones that use the fewest words...
...they're the ones that use no words at all

Destiny Defined

I live my life full of passion and vigor
...the feelings inside me will not leave me bitter
I'm tired of hearing all your meaningless words
With you thinking your better, you're just ignorant fools
My life is beyond you, yet you still try to find me
…you're ignorant passion is your drive to defy me

My head is a minefield, the path is amiss
I'm stumbling my way through the finite abyss
It hurts me inside to think of all that I gave
But I feel better now, I'm no longer enslaved…

…by the misery I felt every long night…
The anguish I felt putting out every fight…
Distracting my conquest of finding the light…
The Grail is near, I am all too sincere…
I envision the day when the bright shine appears…

…And keep me there…
…Just keep me there…
…Keep me there…

I'm tired every instant of every moment
I'm worn from the weight of your anger
Misplaced, though it is…
…you're making it my biz
It's no longer a thought in my heart

I live my life full of passion and vigor
...the feelings inside me will not leave me bitter
I'm tired of hearing all your meaningless words
With you thinking your better, you're just ignorant fools
My life is beyond you, yet you still try to find me
…you're ignorant passion is your drive to defy me

I envision a scene in the peace of the day
Tranquil and laying, in the place I could stay
And I talk to the Gods or embrace the skies
I no longer live by your transient lies
I've found my place…
…the past behind me erased
I am one with the light…
…my story ended right…

There's no heart without a beat to it

There's no heart without a beat to it

I know
What I don't want to know
And will face
What I will not embrace
Because I'm scared to know
What I don't want to know
I'm fighting myself…

I see
The better part of me
Using all the tools
And making all the rules
I'm losing myself…

I lost you
You weren't mine to lose
But still I, I can't face the news
My life is in a daze
A momentary phase

And yet I still believe
That all I really need
Is a lover…

…wherever you are…

There's no heart without a beat to it
The strength within me to commit
I don't know what I need to fit…

I'm gonna be the one in the world…
…who'll figure out to live happily