You're My Heart

As I reflect upon the days we saw...
...laying beachside by the moon and shore...
...I promised you that I'd do everything...

...that it took....

...'til I wasn't the fool, that you met those years ago...
...when all that we fought was about the big pillow...
...I dream of you every time the spring breeze blows...
...'cuz, Sweets, you're my heart...

When I first saw you I was so alone...
...lost and tired, broken to the bone...
You promised me that you'd do everything...

...that it took...

...'til I was back on my feet, and one you could adore...
...when you finally said, "I don't mind it if you snore"...
...you dreamt of me everytime you heard the score...

...'til this day, Sweets, you're my heart...

Coming next week, you'll be dressed in white...
...walking slowly with father's arm...
...and at the end the there'll be a man in black...

...but I can't help but think, that you feel it's a mistake...
...holding his hand, will you look for an escape?...
...when it comes time to say those two simple words...

...remember, Sweets, you're my heart...

...you're my heart...
...you're my heart...

...Sweets, you're my heart...

Dream Sequence

I'm not here to face the future...
I have seen it through the past
I'm too scared to make you my present...
I'm afraid to see you go

I saw you in a dream I had...
Telling me of my woes
You told me of the fears I had...
The ones I've never shown

And in that dream I saw you...
...It still plays in my mind...
You told me of the fears you had...
Not one diff'rent from mine...

Yet still inside the dream I've had...
...and the words we shared aloud...
I found out what I had to hear
...and what I had to do...

'One man don't make an army
But I'm not here to fight a war
Please just take what I can give you...
...Don't tear my heart out on the floor...'

I cried the night I told you...
...of the dream we shared, out loud
I hung my head expecting...
...the noose, rejection, never came

Those four lines were unscripted,
As I held you in my arms...
...And cling, you would forever...
Unwritten love was ours

Q+A? Time to Dream Away

What happened to our future?
What happened to our past?
What happened to our present?
Where did it go so fast?

What happened to your boyfriend?
...the one you left me for?
What happened to your best friend?
...the one you called a whore?

When did you decide to call me?
Where were you when you did?
What prompted you to call me?
...was it my fault that you hid?

My life feels like a circle
I've seen this path before
The chance to return to it
Is not a chance to score

I fell for you not long ago
I gave to you my heart
But time was a virtue you did not need
To tear my love apart

How did you move on without me?
Who comforted you at night?
Were they not quite what you needed?
...or was I just an after thought?

My eyes are traveling bloodshot
Have not seen a pillow; not for days
My minds been trying to tell me
In about a hundred million ways

Should I stay or should I go?
Has that decision already been made?
Is that choice yet mine to choose?
...do I even have you to lose?

I figured out not long ago
You were not right for me
But the head cannot lie to the heart
For me, it's back to the start

Penance

I believe in me...
I believe in you...
Yet, I won't let you control what I do...

Whatever I say...
Whatever the words...

All I really mean...
Is that I love you...

Meaning...

My name, it doesn't matter...
...because I life a life of hope
I wake up every morning...
...I write a brand new song

...And then I fall asleep again...
...the whole day starts a new
Again a fall asleep again...
...and there's nothing I can do...

...These days it doesn't matter living hopelessness

I awoke this morning...
...and saw a man I didn't know
He was playing a string insrtument...
...but he didn't have his bow

So, he sat there in the corner...
...and played his fingers to the bone
And as he sat there in the corner...
...I pondered the great unknown...

...Still I lay here without meaning or desirement

I live a life in which I see...
...the same things every day
The same tree blowing in the wind...
...the same cat meowing by

And in a haste I drive by...
...many exits past my home
And in a haste I drive by...
...I've finally found my home...

...This time I control how I live forevermore...

One morning I awoken....
...to a girl I've seen before
Regret never had a chance...
...because I finally took a chance...

I walked into the other room...
...I picked our child up
...And as I walked into the other room...
...my life was filled with hope...

...And life as the immortal fool will dissapate...

As I Wish...

If things were to go as I wish,
My life would soon cease to exist
For night and day and day and night,
Only appear when you see the light.

If all my dreams were to come true,
You'd somehow know that I loved you
...And we'd share good times that all would see,
Yet the only doubts would be in me

If I had a magic genie or I held the magic lamp,
I have a feeling that my virtues would fall prey to the overt trap.

If I had the chance to make you mine,
Without the work of love and time
Your love for me would misaligned
...And I would have to write a poem, again, where all the last lines rhymed.

If things were to go as I wish,
I think I'd live a life like this
Where skies are blue...
...and tears are, too
...And life had repercussions from all the things I do

Here, I sit and wait and wait...
Waiting for my greatest mistake...
For when I see a world of power and grandeur...
The life as I wish, would never be ensured.

Starting Line Mist

Tell me tomorrow's never coming
And I'll take you to the start
To the place where there are no questions
In the matter of the heart

Frozen here forever
Purtagory is my home
Heaven is a virtue
Where my feet will never roam

I can feel the cold deep inside my skin
Part of the places I have never been
And so it goes back to the heart
Where the beginning ends... back to the start

I thought my life was so surreal
A journey set through past ordeals
The purpose shown to be revealed...

Tomorrow has seen better days
The sunset came a million ways
But the sun will rise beyond my days
In so many more than a million ways
See past the light and through the haze...
Betray the heart and you shall always pay

Only Dreaming...

Now these people go and say that I don't understand
But I can do what I want and I want what I can
Cause I'm holding.... I know that I'm holding
I know I'm not the man that you need me to be
But I can give you my heart 'cause my heart's on my sleeve
And I'm holding... I know that I'm holding... Always be holding

The past is the part that I'll never let go
I will hold you even closer 'til you feel my flow
We're always afraid that the future's delayed
It'll start when it's ready, there's no use to hold

I'll never let you tell me that... I'll never let you tell me that...
I'll never let you tell me that... Never let you tell me that...

Don't be scared, oh, don't be afraid
This world can be a barren place
Without me seeing your showing face

My arms are tired, my legs are weak
For holding on is leading bleak
I'll tell you now, I'll tell you later
I've been holding on for fear... the fear of falling

I've the seen the light the sun can shine
When you awake to the horizon line
It showed me sights that I could not see
Without the aid of those shattered dreams

People that told me that dreams were shot
Would never be worth another thought
I know better 'cause I was taught
It'll never be over if you play the clock

I know... I'm here
I'm trying... to be
The one... in the light
Who can save the soul of my shattered dreams

And I know... I'll be here
'Til the night... of the year
Always cold... from the heat
In control of the only heart on the only night of the year

...On the only night of the year

And I know... I will say
The perfect thing.. at the perfect sight.. of your holding might
On the only night.. in the only dream...
That became the light of my life...
You became the light of my life...

Whose Heart is on Your Side

Whose heart is on your side?
You always there though they seldom call
They will never catch you should you ever fall
Whose heart is on your side?

Cry and weep from street to street
The closest shadow is the window streak
Whose heart is on your side?

Whose heart is on your side
When your heart is done with playing games?
When your heart is worn and torn and mourned
Whose heart is on your side?

When your chips are in
The battles coming
The ships are sailing
The storm clouds gathering
Whose heart is on your side?

The one shot left is not your own
Whose heart is on your side?

Devil's Angel

I'm your sense of inspiration
I am always on your mind
You want to get together
But we're running out of time

I don't want to take my chances
Don't wanna wear my tires down
I want to be your angel
But your devil's running wild

My heart is taking chances
My mind will not allow
Like saying it's forever
When I know you're on the prowl

Hun, I know you're scared
'Cause I know that I'm scared, too
Don't give me that look, baby
There's nothing I can do

I'm your sense of inspiration
The sunshine in your day
The milk that's in your coffee
I'm the flower to your bee

I wish you had the words to say
'I love you more than yesterday'
But I know to me what matters most
Your feelings strong to hold me close

Be Kind, Have Faith, Believe

This world is filled with fear and doubt
Inside it's not what it's about
Your sight won't show you things to be
The greatest gifts your eyes can't see

I have a secret I cannot share
Every moment I say a prayer
Despite my wish to hold you close
I made you think I mattered most

You should've see my life before
The night you walked in through the door
Into my heart that wasn't there
Old broken loves had left it bare

So, I hid my heart within my chest
It's not that hard when I get depressed
It's not fair to you I always run
When loving me is the worst you've done

Faith's the toughest thing of all
No one to hold you when you should fall
Your trust in me was always there
I can see it now I was not fair

The times we spent together
Were the times I freed my mind
The times I let myself believe
That time is on my side

I'll put myself out in the air
To let the people stand and stare
At the mess I've been since I let you leave
My mended heart is on my sleeve

It's time I gave myself a chance
To live a life of true romance
I'll hold your hand as we walk alone
Letting the sunset lead us to the great unknown

As the credits roll, the screen faces to black
You give me the chance to take it back
Without a sound, I pull you near
To let you know that I can hear
The words you say before they appear

And with that I can finally say
What I've wanted to from the very first day
I gazed into your eyes and saw an ocean blue
To tell you how much
…how much I love you

Yours truly, yours

Cold and rainy
Dark and dreary
My own fault,
I've done it to me.

Lost and helpless
Caught in distress
Yours truly yours,
I will confess.

Tuesday's come but once a week
The saddest times; the deepest bleak
And when I think I've beat the streak,
I start again to reach the peak.

It goes back to the time I said
I didn't want you in my bed
And it was made for all to see
The person laid would not be me.

I'm sorry for the lies I've told
The cheap attempts at being bold
For crying when I'm feeling old
…and keeping warmth when you were cold.

And so it comes without an aim
I'm on my knees embracing pain
Left without an ounce of shame
My love is yours…
…I've quit the game

I think I've known what matters most
You shouldn't fear the faded ghosts…
Of what has happened in the past
What we didn't do to make it last

Still on my knees I'll take your hand
To lift me up and I shall stand
Your every wish at my command

Yours truly yours,
Can I be your man?