I'm chasing myself in my dreams...

I'm chasing myself in my dreams...
...as I walk down the same dim lightened street...
Away from the dreams from my future...
...away from the dreams of my past...

I'm chasing myself in my dreams...
...and I'm running as fast as I can...
For the chance to ask myself a question...
...but the question's outside of my head...

I'm chasing myself in my dreams...
...because I'm too scared to do it awake.
Too scared to believe in my future...
...too scared to confront my past...

I'm chasing myself in my dreams...
...that's the time I listen to myself...
I can try to make up for the burdens I've caused...
...I can remake the conditions I've felled.

I'm chasing myself in my dreams...
...for I am so scared of being alive...
Alive means responsibility...
...but I face my chores with an order of sleep...

I'm so scared of being alive...
Having to make choices
Having to trust
Having to build a home
...and a house... with a job... for your family
Having to be more than yourself

I'm so scared of being alive...
...because living as a child's so easy.
I can go out and play...
...and rhyme every day...
Then tomorrow go do that again.

I'm chasing myself in my dreams
But I'm not walking alone in the clouds...
...there's a man, and a gal, and they're dancing around...
...as I smile awake in my dreams...

I'm chasing myself in my dreams...
...to tell myself things are ok...
Where I am now, is not where I'll end up...
...and in the end things are ok...

I'm chasing myself in my dreams...
...and I have finally flagged the man down...
He looks at me in awe, and puts out his claw...
...as we embrace before dark becomes dawn...

I look myself in the eyes... literally, so is the case...
And I run down my thoughts... and my fears and my warts...
As myself listens to every ideal...

After I laid it all down, we talked for a while...
...until we gave up, and both left with a smile...
For we both understood, what that he couldn't get through...

...I'd have to figure it out on my own...

I watch myself dreaming in dreams...
...when real life is not what it seems...
And though it's only a thought,
...real awakenings are sought...

So, I'm still chasing myself in my dreams...

When the love is still young...

Once and over, tried and true...
...oh, the things I'd do for you...
From early morning to the pearly gates...
...A request from you, I shalln't hesitate...

I wanted to take you on a date...
...but my head and heart wouldn't cooperate...
Yet, when I finally found the strength to speak...
...I knew there was no cause for being meek...

The beginning leads to love anew...
The fluttering hearts of the morning dew...
When everyone will say, "Their love outgrew"
You should always know, I'll never tire of you...

Girl, I can make you happy...
...and let our fate roll through...
I'll make sure that the world will never unnerve you...

Hun, I'll hold you closer than I did at the start...
...so, you'll trust that you're my sweetheart...

Sunset in Paradise, New Yorkifornia

Why am I afraid of the feelings in my heart?
If I can't get them out, I can lose them before we start
I must tell you now, though, it may be too soon
I wish you were mine to hold beneath the moon

Every second that I see you...
Every moment that we share...
I wonder if you think of me...
When I'm not exactly there...

Why do you haunt me in my dreams...
Every day and every night?...
So, when I found those words to tell you...
Why did I make it such a fight?

Believe what you want to
There's nothing I could do to stop you
I can't offer you the world, but I can promise you the stars
If we could be together, the future would be ours

I wrote this as a ploy one day
So, you couldn't take my heart away
But now playing isn't all that fun
It just ends up hurting everyone

Tomorrow morning I will see the sun
And ask him for some courage
For when the moon comes out to play
You'll finally be mine on that special day

Flowing Hearts

Remnants of a new society
Taking all our hard earned property
Showing the world their new philosophy
Destroying tyranny of the old monopoly

I believe in true monogamy
Fraying eyes will lead to bigotry
Love for all has not be lost on me
Yet my one true heart has not been shown to see

Am I a struggling soul for all eternity?
Missing prts for me to wholy be
The point of life is to live uncertainly
...until the world shows you your perfect destiny...

"Unusually writing of DKNY?"

Me... or the thought of me?

I like picture frames... but they symbolize borders. You're blocking everything in the outside in world beyond the walls of where you want to be. Rememberance of times held dear... a time capsule made for all to see. When time stands still I'll be drinking a cup of tea with my friend Bea... trice.

Me... or the thought of me?

Vivo en Ma-ho-pac. I'm free in the world... but where am I now? Am I here where you need me to be... or would that really need be where I need to be?

Me... or the thought of me?

I'm here as part of your side... standing here waiting for my role in the game. Hey, Coach... is it my turn now? Been ready for all time now... waiting for you is the past.

Me... or the thought of me?

Lovely brown locks now of gold shining luster... the thought of you now makes my heart float and fluster. It's cold out tonight, but as the stars shine so bright, don't give any light as you walk into my sight.

Me... or the thought of me?

Baby, you're a bitch... and I hate your guts. I wish I had something more heart-felt and romantic, but you suck so much I go back to the Titanic. You're hateful to a tee, you remind me of a bee... You reach into a flower, why do I end up with the thorn?

You... or the thought of you?

The thought of you makes me sick, sweetheart... or should I say, 'YOU'RE A PRICK!!' What's the deal with your hastiness towards me? I decided that I'm finally gonna go... 'I'M GONNA DO IT!! You'll find me in Kokomo!'

Baby, what's left for me to say right now? Actually, it's out of place, Kristina's afraid of clowns... Darling, my dear, I had to get that off my chest... I'm sorry to say, I'm definitely the best...

Sooooooo, you can't have me... The best of me is yet to come... all that's left for you is the thought of me...

The End...?

The Singing Hopeless Man

Hey baby, good morning. How nice of you to bare your soul. The night had hardly started when you all too soon departed... yet somehow you woke in my arms.

Hey baby, how nice of you to share the song. It's great to know what's on your mind, to put what's happened far behind. You said you couldn't find the words to explain the happenings absurd... but when you couldn't find your thoughts to say, I understood you anyway.

Hey baby, how are you today? What's on your mind? What's in your heart? What's happened since the sun has turned to dark.

Oh, deary, what are you doing now? Did you still have your heart set on the trip to see the clowns? It's been a while since we saw those guys... and all too long since those last goodbyes.

Dear Daisy, I hope this finds you well. Last time we spoke I saw the sun rise as your door slammed me in the face. Again my heart got in the way as I did not know exactly what to say... If I had a power under my control, I would take back what I stammered so, when I was gone and told to go... Next time I write I promise you that more than promises I can do...

Baby, this is the last song I could ever write about our 'love' that fateful night when the future seemed to begin to change as we both began to search for blame. The truth is I would never start to build a love within my heart... without a cause, without a reason... It's hard to believe it's the change of season. My love for you began to grow when facts were laid I did not know. I fell in love with the role they wrote for you... and you played your part to a 'T'. You did not have a simple clue, what was this poor boy supposed to do?... This time it's my heart that's crying for 'line'. What has happened between us is in the past... why couldn't that present forever last? What we could had might've been the best we have hoped for until we rest... But I still write you all the same, I hope this letter finds you well...

...oh wait... wish my my brother the best as well.

Rhyming Rhetoric

Sometime I think... "Will this last forever?"
With sleepless nights... and endless days...
I'm the foolish one... but when it's said and done...
Will I keep standing here... waiting for you to appear...
I'm the foolish one... and forget what I do...

My time like this is over...
I'm not seventeen...
I wipe my hands clean...
Won't last for too much longer...
...take what you can to get stronger...
'Cuz I'm foolish one...
...time for you to steal what you can grab...

So tired of being romantic...
...tired being romantic...
Time to be the maverick...
...and show the world...

That this feeling won't last forever...
...who I was just hit the lever...

And it's time to know...
...where ever you may go...
That you had this soul...
...treated like a hellhole...
Not much left to say...
...so it's time for me to roll...

My time like this is over...
I'm not seventeen...
I wipe my hands clean...
Won't last for too much longer...
...take what you can to get stronger...
'Cuz I'm foolish one...
...time for you to steal what you can grab...

Can't be bitter 'cuz I let myself down...
A man can only live for so long with his heart on his sleeve...
...and when it's on your sleeve...
...it's not hard to believe...
...that I was seventeen...
...and you could steal what you could grab...

You're My Heart

As I reflect upon the days we saw...
...laying beachside by the moon and shore...
...I promised you that I'd do everything...

...that it took....

...'til I wasn't the fool, that you met those years ago...
...when all that we fought was about the big pillow...
...I dream of you every time the spring breeze blows...
...'cuz, Sweets, you're my heart...

When I first saw you I was so alone...
...lost and tired, broken to the bone...
You promised me that you'd do everything...

...that it took...

...'til I was back on my feet, and one you could adore...
...when you finally said, "I don't mind it if you snore"...
...you dreamt of me everytime you heard the score...

...'til this day, Sweets, you're my heart...

Coming next week, you'll be dressed in white...
...walking slowly with father's arm...
...and at the end the there'll be a man in black...

...but I can't help but think, that you feel it's a mistake...
...holding his hand, will you look for an escape?...
...when it comes time to say those two simple words...

...remember, Sweets, you're my heart...

...you're my heart...
...you're my heart...

...Sweets, you're my heart...

Dream Sequence

I'm not here to face the future...
I have seen it through the past
I'm too scared to make you my present...
I'm afraid to see you go

I saw you in a dream I had...
Telling me of my woes
You told me of the fears I had...
The ones I've never shown

And in that dream I saw you...
...It still plays in my mind...
You told me of the fears you had...
Not one diff'rent from mine...

Yet still inside the dream I've had...
...and the words we shared aloud...
I found out what I had to hear
...and what I had to do...

'One man don't make an army
But I'm not here to fight a war
Please just take what I can give you...
...Don't tear my heart out on the floor...'

I cried the night I told you...
...of the dream we shared, out loud
I hung my head expecting...
...the noose, rejection, never came

Those four lines were unscripted,
As I held you in my arms...
...And cling, you would forever...
Unwritten love was ours

Q+A? Time to Dream Away

What happened to our future?
What happened to our past?
What happened to our present?
Where did it go so fast?

What happened to your boyfriend?
...the one you left me for?
What happened to your best friend?
...the one you called a whore?

When did you decide to call me?
Where were you when you did?
What prompted you to call me?
...was it my fault that you hid?

My life feels like a circle
I've seen this path before
The chance to return to it
Is not a chance to score

I fell for you not long ago
I gave to you my heart
But time was a virtue you did not need
To tear my love apart

How did you move on without me?
Who comforted you at night?
Were they not quite what you needed?
...or was I just an after thought?

My eyes are traveling bloodshot
Have not seen a pillow; not for days
My minds been trying to tell me
In about a hundred million ways

Should I stay or should I go?
Has that decision already been made?
Is that choice yet mine to choose?
...do I even have you to lose?

I figured out not long ago
You were not right for me
But the head cannot lie to the heart
For me, it's back to the start

Penance

I believe in me...
I believe in you...
Yet, I won't let you control what I do...

Whatever I say...
Whatever the words...

All I really mean...
Is that I love you...

Meaning...

My name, it doesn't matter...
...because I life a life of hope
I wake up every morning...
...I write a brand new song

...And then I fall asleep again...
...the whole day starts a new
Again a fall asleep again...
...and there's nothing I can do...

...These days it doesn't matter living hopelessness

I awoke this morning...
...and saw a man I didn't know
He was playing a string insrtument...
...but he didn't have his bow

So, he sat there in the corner...
...and played his fingers to the bone
And as he sat there in the corner...
...I pondered the great unknown...

...Still I lay here without meaning or desirement

I live a life in which I see...
...the same things every day
The same tree blowing in the wind...
...the same cat meowing by

And in a haste I drive by...
...many exits past my home
And in a haste I drive by...
...I've finally found my home...

...This time I control how I live forevermore...

One morning I awoken....
...to a girl I've seen before
Regret never had a chance...
...because I finally took a chance...

I walked into the other room...
...I picked our child up
...And as I walked into the other room...
...my life was filled with hope...

...And life as the immortal fool will dissapate...