Hulkamania

If I were Hulk Hogan, all I'd have to do was rip off my shirt and things would be ok...

Missing

Well, I'm getting fucking tired that you think nothing's missing
If that's the case, why the hell are you always bitchin'?
Things aren't great, yeah, but they aren't the worst
Your head must be way up your own ass, if you're the one cursed

Everyday I see people way too caught up in their lives
Anything that goes wrong is a reason to die
I know that's no way for anyone to live his or her life
But it's better than sometimes forgetting that you're still alive

Why are you always so afraid to of change?
The world out there is full of wonder
The only expectations that matter are your own
You always don't need to know for sure

I'm tired of living by all your 8" by 11"s
I like my late night runs to the 7-eleven
You never understood you could say so much more than those lined sheets of paper
It's your own fault now, babe, cause I'm what your missing

Superhero

It's cold.
And I'm out of control.
It's hot.
So, you fire your gunshot.
I don't know what to do anymore.
I don't know what to say anymore.
I can't be your superhero, so don't try to be my shrink.

You called me at 2 in the morning
Told me I was the only one who was ever really listening
Put your hopes into everything that I said
When nothing I said even mattered.

It's cold.
And I'm out of control.
It's hot.
So, you fire your gunshot.
I don't know what to do anymore.
I don't know what to say anymore.
I can't be your superhero, so don't try to be my shrink.

Half the time it feels as if your problems were mine
Putting them on me is like committing a crime
I wish my words had what it takes to make a little difference
But you're the only one who could ever close up the distance

It's cold.
But, I'm the one in control.
It's hot.
You still fire your gunshot.
I don't know what to do anymore.
I know I don't even care anymore.
But I know I can't be your superhero, so don't try
Don't try…
Don't try…
Stop trying to be my shrink.

Tired of Hearing About Second Chances

I like to pretend it didn't actually happen
She acts like it never happened at all
All I want to do is to put the truth on the table
All she wants to do is build immeasurable walls

I never understood why it's called a turn-about
Never understood why she'll never let it out
My words are true and they'll never be mistaken
Her fears still there, but I'll always be her haven

Why can't she let what's been said be said past?
Sometimes I get the feeling you just want the pain to last
Your girlfriends hardly call when this shit isn't happening
But fuck that, you know I'm the one who should be listening

I'm running out of words now
Hell, I'm barely listening
I just could never comprehend why you're so afraid to take a chance
I poured my heart out on the floor and all I got was a sigh
Sometimes the only feeling I think I'd get out of you
Is if I met another girl or even started to cry

But I'm tired of pretending that it never actually happened
At this point, I go on as if it never actually happened
If I ever tried to make up for the asshole I've been,
I'd just laugh in your face, honey, because I'm tired of trying

Adventures in Postal Work

Suicidal ain't a term that is meant for the missing
It's only for those who still need convincing
For those who are scared to move on with their lives
And for those who cannot see the ultimate prize

I don't understand how they get to that point
How they lie and they cry and they keep it inside
Until all that they are is an inferno of anger
Who tries to get by despite human nature

Sometimes I quest God just for one simple answer
"Will I ever be the man I built myself up to be?"
I gaze towards immortal skies,
Wishing on every single star,
Knowing it's my last chance to turn it all around

I refuse to believe that all I have is all I'm ever going to get
Just need to get up off the mat, Face the world with all my imperfections
'Cause I know someday the world will be off my shoulders and in the palm of my hand

Believe

If you believe,
Why do you have to convince me?
Why must you summon my approval at a moments notice?
You think you know who you are,
But you live in the shadows of other people's values.

My opinions matter, but only to myself
That's what keeps me going,
Believing who I am.
You can't swear by visions
You won't let yourself see.

Be who you are
You're the only one knows the path you've traveled.

Remember the past
Dream of the future
Live for the moment

Believe…

Endless Pavement

Endless pavement
Endless dreams
As I look around, that's all I see
I have to ask with uncertainty,
Is this all I'll ever aspire to be

Dreaming is fine,
If that's all it is
Instead of walking on eggshells,
To be part of the biz

Always trust yourself,
When it comes to your heart
Following your feelings
Is still the hardest part

I'll leave you with this,
Though I know it's not much
Beginning is easy,
Just don't fear her touch.

Hurtful Prosthetics

I walk down to the corner
Same sights I've seen all my life
Same faces in passing everyday

I live in a world protected by bubble-wrap
I live in a world where everything's decided
I feel so... so constrained by the walls of my mind
I'm going to let you show me the new world
And cast all my fears aside

I'm going to put my faith in you
I'd say I'm surprised I am,
But with you, I know all my dreams can come true
Together.

Don't be afraid
As one, we can brave this new world
And hold it in the palms of out hands
Together, we can do anything

I love you
I hope you know that
Actually, I know you do...
Where ever you are

Depression Lament

Life is crazy. I just don't understand it. I have to tell you I love you, but it won't make life any easier. I'd be lying if I said I enjoyed where I'm at and that I know things are going to be ok. They aren't. I spend my days dreaming of what could've been and my nights wishing the next morning will never come. In between, I keep trying to find out where I went wrong... when my dreams died and all my earthly ambitions ceased to exist. I realized I spent my life trying to please other people as a way to appease the immense pain and pressure put on me by people I didn't hold sacred. And now I can't live myself. I can hardly live for the moment. I have no one to blame but myself, but it's all too easy to pass the blame. So I can't... I won't. The road from here is bleak, dark. There's hardly a shadow sketched on the dirt path that is my life… I don't know where I'm at, I don't know where I've been, and I sure as hell don't know where I'm going. I just need to scrape the mud off my shoes, but I don't understand why I can't do that. The understanding of many issues continues to escape me and it frightens me that I'll die in pursuit of their ideals. I'm not scared, but I'm close. I always said I'm not afraid of much, and in saying that, I have always been sincere. Time isn't much, but it's the thing that haunts me the most. I'm just beginning to realize that. You can outrun just about anything in life, but time is eternal. It's the only constant, the only thing that cannot be changed. I know in my heart I shouldn't fear it; I should embrace every moment, yet I find myself in the corner scared to fight. I just know if I lose that fight, there's nothing left, nothing to grasp on to. I have nothing to risk, so I say, but why can't I take the chance? Why can't I just let go of my ideals, my idiosyncrasies, and just live? Live for the moment. Live for the future. And most of all, live for myself. Fear can be debilitating. I should know… It's been who I am for my entire life. I just never realized it. For all I've done and tried to be, I can't escape what I'm afraid to see. Yet, I can't face it. Deep inside I know we all face ourselves in the mirror, but we all turn away, trying to be someone the ones we love will love. I admire the people who know who they are, acknowledge their flaws and embrace them. Flaws are a part of who I am; yet I just can't face up to them. I know that my life is in shambles. I'm a hollowed out corpse of the person I used to be. But I pine to be content with the uncertainty of life instead of bitching about it every waking moment. But can't that be said for everyone?

What I've learned of life. Pain is inevitable... it's as strong as the noontime sun and as constant as star-glittered sky at night. I've learned no matter what you've been through... whatever epiphany you have; you still gotta maintain... you gotta stay strong. I've learned that beliefs may change, but your virtues never will.